i just wanna live

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 01:51:49 GMT

Dear You,
    You fucked me up. You fucked up my life. You said that you were going to and i should have fucking listened to you. I should have ended it the second you told me that you were going to end up fucking up my life, but I didn't. Mistake number one on my part. You don't get what you did to me and how you fucked me up. I can't trust anyone. I don't believe things people tell me. And I never feel loved. I never feel liked. I hurt all the time and I realized that it's because of you. I fucking hate you. I want to hurt you. I tried to make you feel loved and you didn't want it. I tried to show you what respect was, but I didn't get it. I didn't stay with you because I liked you, I stayed out of spite. I didn't want to give up on you like everyone else has. I didn't want to hurt you like everyone else has. But how fucking dare you hurt me like that. My feelings aren't for you to toy with. They're mine and its so hard for me to keep them from getting hurt even when I keep you OUT of my life. How dare you wear his sweatshirt in front of me. It's like I'm getting better until you rip the fucking floor out from underneath me. I'm not okay. You made me not okay. I'll never fucking forgive you. You made me not trust it when people say the same things you said to me. How do I know that you didn't lie to me from day one, you lying stupid bitch? How do I know you EVER liked me? How can I feel beautiful after you called me beautiful. Fuck, you never called me beautiful. YOu just critized my body. And how I eat. You made me feel uncomfortable eating in front of people. Especially people I like. You made me feel fat at a time I felt good. You brought me down, and I can't come back up. Fuck you. You are a stupid cunt and I fucking hate you. Thank you for fucking up my life.
                                                                                                                         Sincerly,
                                                                                                                                  Me

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 10:25:47 GMT

Bye bye summer of 2007. you were interesting. we'll leave it at that.

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 15:36:08 GMT

yoooooo

meg leaves tomorrow so that means i'm kinda going on vacaton...to buffalo.for 3 days :\

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 22:34:01 GMT

anais: i hope the seal dies.
chelsea: aren't you a vegetarian?
anais: do you eat seals?

that was from march. found it in my lj. hahahah so fucking funny. love them two.

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 01:19:30 GMT

Jesus Christ, I know that its a tragedy when GEORGE BUSH's speech has made me cry.

Today was so surreal. I didn't see that many teens give a shit about today. I didn't want to go to school today. I wanted to be at ground zero. I was there last year and I wanted to go again. But we had school. And when I came to school this morning, I thought that there would have been solemn kids. Worried kids. Sad kids. I saw nothing of the sort. So I didn't want to show that I was hurting from today. A lot of people asked me why I had that bandana today. I needed something to make me feel like I was part of this country. Then they were like "Oh wait. Isn't today Sept. 11th?" How could someone be so oblivious as to not know. I'm feeling a lot of stuff right now. But its too much for a journal entry.

God bless and thanks to all the heroes from that day and the aftermath of that day.

CAMP ADDISONE BOYCE IS MY FAVORITE PLACE TO BE!

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 21:43:35 GMT

Heyy all

Camp is officially over. It's so fucking sad.
This was the best summer ever.
-Ice cream lasagna
-Vag wolves
-saran wrap
-"come to my bosom"
-helmets
-hawthorne heights
-potatoes
-deertarded
-"we are CITs and we eat. HUH!"
-"whats that?" "a paper birch." "hey guys, thats a paper birch tree"
-scatteragories
-bagels
-sloppywaffles
-funyaking into il sunset
-brownies in funyaks
-my bruises
-torrential downpour canoeing
-elbow tag
-"there are two muffin's in an oven. one muffin says to the other 'hey, its really hot in here' and the other muffin says 'AHHHH!!! a talking muffin!'"

oh man, there are soooo many more. but i can't think of them all. i'm really glad that i got to spend this summer with some great people. i'm finally a counselor. a lot happened at camp which has altered me and i truely think i am a more mature person than i was at the start of the summer. and i'm finally accepted.
if they close camp next year, i will protest. seriously.

BACKDOOR CAFE!!

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 02:06:40 GMT

BACKDOOR!!!!!
This Friday (Aug. 4th)
BIGGEST SHOW OF THE YEAR!!!
2-stage show

BANDS PLAYING
Hello Nurse
The Tattles Tales
Bangin' On A Trash Can
Angela Baker
The Starkillers
Sleep Bellum Sonno
The Naked Citizens
Watch It Die (5FI...with a name change)
Third Wave Bandits
Tae Kwon Don't
Green Eyes Scream Lies
Digame
3 Monkeys Named Bob
Fikus

Show starts at 5:45 and should be over with by 10:45
$4 suggested donation

NO SMOKING, DRINKING, DRUG DOING/SELLING, or MOSHING

It would be amazing if ALL of you could come this friday. It's the biggest Backdoor show of the year and there are so many amazing bands playing. Also, after this...Hello Nurse, The Tattles Tales, and Watch It Die(5FI) can't play here again for another 5 months...and that's before we even think about the new bands that have to play. Why give up this AMAZING opportunity to see all at once? Also, I'm working SECURITY so thats pretty beast as well. If you miss this concert, you will regret it so much and you will not know what you are missing out on.

P.S: you know its a BIG MOTHERFUCKING deal when I'm leaving my VERY LAST DAY of camp at an hour and 45 minutes early. I NEVER would do that...but I am. Cause this show is just THAT big of a deal.

SO PLEASE COME GUYS. IT WOULD MEAN SOOOO MUCH TO ME!!!!

Sat, 20 May 2006 18:40:27 GMT

hey
i hate being poor.
i hate when they fight about us being poor.
damn.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 03:57:18 GMT

Two Words:

SQUIRT! SQUIRT!

ha! im watching galaxy quest...its funny.

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 16:29:32 GMT

hey
so ms angela litz came over last nite. twas muchos fun. we watched blair witch project and saw and sisterhood of the traveling pants and slept and laughed. and i laughed and got excited too much a couple times and had a coughing fit. it was funny. we also took skank pictures. tht was funny too. im tired. i wanna sleep. i should sleep. and eat. and do laundry. hey guess what, today is only saturday, we have one more day w/o skewl after this...YAY!

ok im done
i love you all
♥ALLY

do you like popsicles? i got plenty of popsicles in my freezer. its in my cellar....

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 02:34:55 GMT

hey
so i am gunna strt this entry off good lol. i think...i might.....im not positive yet.....like someone. yea, i think i do lol. but idk. not sure yet if i'm gunna go for him or not. hmmm. yeea. ok well....i jus got home from skewl (FINALLY!). it was a busy day. i had interact which i missed so tht i could go to GSA where a lady from CANDLE came and talked to us and tht was kewl. tht club always makes me feel sum empowerment going on lol. thn i ran down to academic league which i got 5 points for my team in the bonus :). and i was congratulated on tht. thn i went to yogis and cvs for food. thn hung out in my mom's room while these mexican cleaners came in when my sis was getting changed. thn i hung out sum more and did hw. thn i went the retarded national honors induction for my sis. i was saved by anais <3 and we chillaxed in the back row and i made fun of people and we talked...about sum hotties. and thn we ate food..well...anais ate and i watched lol. i did attempt a powder doughnut...but she ate tht too lol. now i am home and really tired. and i have to stay after 2morrow for my mom's x-tra help. so. yea. o, anais, i found out tht jon took off rite after the cermony to study for my mom's statistics test...little does he know tht she postponed it and was gunna tell him but he left lol. and i got to hang out with the short red head who isnt me for like .0005 sec while my mom talked to him. god i love them...not as much as i love you(you meaning anais...not the rest of you all...tht prt comes at the end). so yea. thts about it for now. i sleepy. i go night night.

i love you all muchos

♥ALLY

IM GOING TO THE 7:45 SHOWING 2MORROW NIGHT!!!! YIPEEEE!!!

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 01:27:02 GMT

hey
not much to say. im exausted so im going to sleep early 2nite. i just have to do index cards for ela and thts it. i kinda dnt wanna go 2 skewl 2morrow only b/c i have to get all dressed up for band pictures >_< oh well, i'll suck it up :). so im listening to music and im realizing its making me tired so yea. i really dont have anything to say really. i mean, ya shit happened 2day, but u all already kno about it so wats the point? lol. so yea. um...my mom finally ordered the tickets for me, her, my sis, and bob. we are going 2morrow nite @ 7:45. just out of curiousity, who is going and when? and if you dnt kno wat im talking about, you obviously arent going lol. im really excited. i wanted to go to the midnight showing 2nite but my mommy said no >_< oh well lol. ok thts it i guess
i love you
♥ALLY

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 16:22:30 GMT

psst...i have a secret.....can u keep it????

I LOVE ANGELA LITZ!!! shh....don't tell anyone!

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 04:30:02 GMT

worst luck ever....i have....PINK EYE...AGAIN.....3rd time this summer but now it is in my left eye :( so...yea. i am getting a manicure today and a pedicure and my hair cut so yea

10 days left!!!

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 00:42:13 GMT

So today i read ALL day. i seriously mean....ALL day. i woke up @ 12:00 and started reading at 12:15. i finished the book @ 8:00. i was reading harry potter and the order of the pheonix to refresh my memory seeing how the sixth book comes out on the 16th. i was on around pg 250 yesterday morning and like 300 this morning and i read from pg 300-870. tht was a MAJOR accomplishment to me. now i have like 3 other books i have to read until i can get my hands on the 6th h.p book (after my sis reads it). then i read that book....and if time....read anything else i want. so ive spent an entire day not eating and just reading and ive been listening to my ipod all the while. so..i've got to find sumtin productive for tomorrow....but not friday because...I'M GOING TO A YANKEE GAME!!! i'm excited.....it's my first.....it's gunna be GREAT!!! ok...im done

~me

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 23:07:59 GMT

i found this thing on my myspace and i did it. i thought the answers were well.....worth sharing.

1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in a column.
2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want.
3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the names of members of the opposite sex.
4. Write anyone's name (like friends or family....) in the 4th, 5th, and 6th spots.
5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10, and 11.
6. Finally, make a wish

My Answers:

1. 2, 2. 7, 3. David, 4. Angela, 5. Anais, 6. Nicole, 7. Sean, 8. Scars, 9. Untitled, 10. B.Y.O.B, 11. Be My Escape

And now the key for the game.....
1. You must tell (the number in space 2) people about this game.
2. The person in space 3 is the one that you love. correct
3. The person in 7 is one you like but can't work out. incorrect.....sry sean
4. You care most about the person you put in 4. correct
5. The person you name in number 5 is the one who knows you very well. pretty much correct
6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky star. idk wat tht means but w/e
7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3. i'd have to say so
8. The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7. ehh....not really...but also a lil bit
9. The tenth space is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind. i don't get how B.Y.O.B tells most bout my mind....but w/e
10. and 11 is the song telling you how you feel about life i guess that is true....i need sum1 to be my escape.

idk....these answers took me by suprise.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 02:07:40 GMT

You are a klutz. You don't have a really good
balance.^_^; You have a really bright attitude
and like to party. You see past the all the
looks on people because since your not perfect
you don't see why you should judge others that
way.

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
brought to you by Quizilla

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 14:18:51 GMT

*About you*
Whats your name?	Allyson
What about your middle name?	Marie
You have a nickname &do you like them?	Ally, All-is-on, Allyoops....i like em
Are you a wild child?	sure....
What do you do when no ones looking?	wouldnt you like to know.....
How old are you?	13
Ever been to the hospital &why?	many times for illnesses n injuries n visitin people
Whens your birthday?	08/09/91
*Love Life (uh Oh)*
Are You Single?	no
If so, who do you WISH had you?
If not, who has you?	David <3
would you prefer a hot body &ugly face or bad body &pretty face?	bad body n pretty face
Whos someone who gives you that funny feeling &how do they do it?	david....i get it most when im worryin bout him...i kno...weird
Have you ever been in love?	i guess you could say im in love now
Have you ever had sex or WANTED to have sex?	umm....no
Have you ever made out?	not yet
Whats your favorite thing about your crush/bf/gf?	his hugs....they are so....protective
Do you like reciving their kisses?	sure
How about their cuddles?	yurp
What was the last date you've been on and enjoyed?	june 17...dance.....had a blast
When was the last time you were dumped/dumped someone?	never
When was the last time you were asked out?	i asked him on june either 14 or 15
What do you think about public displqy of affection with this person?	i kinda like it
What is one song you'd use to express your crush/bf/gf?	idk...i'd say it...but u dudes would laugh
Sex before or after marrage?	w/e
*favorites*
favorite color?	blue...hot pink...purple
favorite food?	french fries
favorite place in the whole world?	anywhere w/ friends or my room
Do you favor single dates or double?	dnt care
Whats your favorite class in school?	lunch n s.s n ela
Whats your favorite band &song?	currently: relient K- Be My Escape
Whats your favorite movie?	the notebook
Favorite Book?	Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
Whats your favorite quote?	on the other hand, you have five more fingers
*Misc*
What was the last commercial you saw?	idk
What were you watching?	idk
Whats the last thing you ate and drank?	skittles n water
Do you have any pets?	cat
Who was the last person to make you smile &how?	dennis quaid.....i was watchin a movie
Who was the last person to mail you a card?	my grandma
Who was the last person you mailed a card to?	a bunch o people
Who was the last person to call you?	my mum
Who was the last person you called?	my step-dad
Who was the last person who text messaged you &what did it say?	nicole: what ru wearin 2day
Who was the last person you text messaged &what did it say?	i dnt txt people
Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?	ellen
Do you enjoy masterbation?	y do they always put masterbation on these things????
Do you enjoy porn?	eh...
Do you enjoy spending time with your friends?	I LOVE IT!!! like times 10 to the infinith
Why do you love your bf/gf (if you have one)?	b/c he is funny and hes adorable and idk...i just...i love him...do i have to have a reason?
What was the last movie you saw in theaters?	umm....sisterhood of the traveling pants
What blows your mind?	how so many people i kno went/is goin through soo much shiz but they are still turning out great people
Whats the banner on you cell phone say?	acept things you cannot change.....its from the serenity prayer
Ever been mooned or flashed?	yup
How often do you shower?	evry morning
Ever paint your nails?	yup
Ever wear makeup?	eyeliner n mascara
Ever dye your hair?	no...but i did p ut highlighter in it in 5th grade...it had pink streaks 4 a week
Ever ride a dirt bike or a 4-wheeler?	no
When did you get to sleep last night?	4:30
What time did you wake up this morning?	9:30
Ever make a survey like this?	nope
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 22:14:19 GMT

well...2day sucked as usual....i was bored as hell....more people fightin...but i dnt really mind that...people doin crazy shiz..u kno who u r.....half days of skewl suck b/c i c alexa n kate n like no otha friends....does ny1 wanna walk to wally's after skewl 2morrow??.....havent talked to david since friday nite :( didnt c him in skewl 2day either...was he even there 2day?..people goin through rough times but im too far 4 anybody to fricken communicate w/ me!! (do u guys get how pissed off i am)...well....im hungry...wanna talk to sum1 ny1 but nobody is on who is worth pourin out nonsense to...summa is like here....while that is totally kewl....it totally sux 2 b/c i kno ill hardly c any of u n then knowin my luck...nun of u will b in my classes nxt yr so....wat can i say....the boredom has takin ova....i wanted to do sumtin 2day...but i couldnt....mayb 2morrow...possibly....hey...i have an idea (jus ramblin @ this point)..i should have a few people cum home w/ me 2morrow n we can study 4 the fricken regents (i kno i havent started yet...) n we can chill by my pool...hell...we can do both @ the same time!! but i should get clearance from my mum for this p4 i officially invite ny1 ova....u also need to kno wat time the prtys on friday strt...anybody kno?? well...jus tell me....ok....cum online people...PLEASE!! ok..im done ramblin....but comment me on sumtin....idc wat...jus do it....

bored

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 18:38:01 GMT

1. (x)Napoleon Dynamite
2. ( )Saw
3. ( )White Noise
4. ( )White Oleander
5. (x)Anger Management
6. (x)50 First Dates
7. ( )Jason X
8. (x)Scream
9. (x)Scream 2
10. (x)Scream 3
11. (x)Scary Movie
12. (x)Scary Movie 2
13. (x)Scary Movie 3
14. ( )American Pie
15. ( )American Pie 2
16. (x)American Wedding
17. (x)Harry Potter
18. (x)Harry Potter 2
19. (x)Harry Potter 3
20. ( )Resident Evil
21. ( )Resident Evil 2
22. ( )The Wedding Singer
23. ( )Little Black Book
24. (x)The Village
25. ( )Donnie Darko
26. (x)Lilo & Stitch
27. (x)Finding Nemo
28. (x)Finding Neverland
29. ( )13 Ghosts
30. (x) Signs
31. (x)The Grinch
32. (x)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
33. ( )White Chicks
34. (x)Butterfly Effect
35. (x)Thirteen going on 30
36. (x)I Robot
37. (x)Dodge ball
38. ( )Universal Soldier
39. ( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
40. ( ) Along Came A Spider
41. ( ) Deep impact
42. ( ) KingPin
43. (x)Never Been Kissed
44. (x)Meet The Parents
45. (x)Meet The Fockers
46. (x)Eight Crazy Nights
47. ( )A Cinderella Story
48. (x)The Terminal
49. (x)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
50. (x)Passport to Paris
51. (x)Dumb & Dumber
52. (x)Dumb & Dumberer
53. ( )Final Destination
54. ( )Final Destination 2
55. ( )Halloween
56. (x)The Ring
57. (x)The Ring 2
58. ( )Harold & Kumar (white castle)
59. (x)Practical Magic
60. (x)Chicago
61. ( )Ghost Ship
62. ( )From Hell
63. (x) Hellboy
64. (x)Secret Window
65. (x)I Am Sam
66. (x)The Whole Nine Yards
67. ( )The Whole Ten Yards
68. ( )The Day After Tomorrow
69. ( )Child's Play
70. ( )Bride of Chucky
71. (x)Ten Things I Hate About You
72. (x)Just Married
73. ( )Gothika
74. ( ) A Nightmare on Elm Street
75. ( )Sixteen Candles
76. ( )Bad Boys
77. ( )Bad Boys 2
78. ( )Joy Ride
79. ( )Seven (SE7EN)
80. (x)Oceans Eleven
81. ( )Oceans Twelve
82. ( )Identity
83. ( )Lone Star
84. ( )Bedazzled
85. ( )Predator I
86. ( )Predator II
87. (x)Independence Day
88. ( )Cujo
89. ( )A Bronx Tale
90. ( )Darkness Falls
91. ( )Christine
92. (x) ET
93. ( )Children of the Corn
94. (x)My Boss' daughter
95. (x)Maid in Manhattan
96. ( )Frailty
97. ( )Best bet
98. (x)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
99. (x)She's All That
100. ( )Calendar Girls
101. ( )Sideways
102. ( )Mars Attacks
103. ( )Event Horizon
104. (x)Ever after
105. (x)Forrest Gump
106. ( )Big Trouble in Little China
107. ( ) X-men 1
108. (x) X-men 2
109. (x)Jeepers Creepers
110. ( )Jeepers Creepers 2
111. (x)Catch Me If You Can
112. (x) The Others
113. ( )Freaky Friday (the original starring Jodie Foster)
114. ( )Reign of Fire
115. ( )Cruel Intentions
116. (x)Hot Chick
117. (x)Swimfan
118. ( ) Miracle
119. ( )Old School
120. ( ) Ray
121. (xxx) The Notebook
122. (x)K-Pax
123. (x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
124. (x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
125. (x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
126. (x)A Walk to Remember
127. (x)Boogeyman
128. ( )Hitch
129. ( )Back Door Sluts 9
130. ( ) South Park: Bigger, Longer and Uncut
131. ( ) the Fifth Element
132. ( )Star wars episode I
133. ( )Star wars episode II
134. (x)Star wars episode IV
135. ( ) Star wars episode V
136. ( )Star wars episode VI
137. (x)Troop Beverly Hills
138. ( )Swimming with Sharks
139. ( )Trainspotting
140. ( )People under the stairs
141. ( )Blue Velvet
142. (x)Sound of music
143. (x) Parent Trap
144. ( ) The Burbs
145. ( )SLC Punk
146. ( )Meet Joe Black
147. ( )Wild girls
148. ( )A Clockwork Orange
149. ( )The Order
150. (x)Spiderman
151. (x)Spiderman 2
152. ( )Amelie
153. (x)Mean Girls
154. (x)Shrek
155. (x)Shrek 2
156. (x)The Incredibles
157. ( )Collateral
158. (x)The Fast & The Furious
159. (x)2 Fast 2 Furious
160. ( )Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
161. ( )Closer
162. (x)The Sixth Sense
163. (x)Artificial intelligence
164. ( )Love actually
165. ( )Shutter
166. ( )Ella Enchanted
167. (x)Princess diaries 1
168. ( )Princess diaries 2
169. ( )Constantine
170. ( )Million Dollar Baby
171. ( )life of david gale
172. ( )25th hour
173. ( )vanilla sky
174. ( ) eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
175. ( )Boogie Nights
176. ( )braveheart
177. ( )the anarchist cook book
178. (x) How to deal
179. ( )What about bob?
180. (x)Billy madison
181.(x)Thirteen

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 06:35:05 GMT

victoria n sam...aww

angela being angela

kate rockin on da guitar

me n david

me, laurie, katilyn, n lauren

me rockin it out b4 da formal

is he not the CUTEST boy u have EVER seen....just look at that face!

we all looked soo good....i have a few more....but they arent as good as these.....otha people w/ pics....get them copied....ill try to get mine copied n we will all share them!! b/c i dnt have enough!!

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 05:36:58 GMT

well.....last nite was....amazing...i kno ive already posted bout it....but i jus got to say it again....it was amazing......david n me are officially a couple....n wow....ive never felt like this....it feels so protected when im in his arms like evrything is gunna b ok......i didnt want last nite to end b/c then evrything would b normal again....n normal sucks munkeys butt!! but suprisingly....normal has imprved about a inch b/c of last nite (not including david).

i went to the movies 2day w/ anais n saw madagascar again....damn....that movie was 10 times more sexual the second time around....it probably also had to do w/ me n anais's perv minds 2gether...but w/e. ha! the fat guy!! n the SWAT team....n our laziness..n my cheese fries.....n the butter...n the songs....n all the babies cryin on cue...wow....that was great!! then the candy necklace..oy...great time today!!

all of a sudden...i ahve that feelin in da pit of my stomach that sumtin terrible is gunna happen...n now im sad...NO!! i want the happiness back *reaches for it n misses*....crap....o well....itll cum bak on monday....i have to figure out how to get pics on here...they r already on my comp...i have a cute 1 of me n david kissin...n 1 of sam n victoria (ill print all of them out so evry1 can c them on monday).

i think it is soo kewl how sum of us went to the dance w/ dates but technically still single n left the nite w/ bf's! n even if sum people cam w/ boyfriends/girlfriends...it was still cute...i say we round up all the *new n improved* couples n have like a gigantical date...but w/e....

im gunna cry a lot this week...but i didnt cry at the dance...when graduation came on n evry1 was cryin....i didnt want to deal w/ it so i buried my head into david n he rested his head on mine n wow...it was....wow. so i jus blanked evry1 out n was held by him...it felt like time had literally stopped n it was jus me n him dancin...but w/ no music...wow...thats all i can say b/c it is THAT difficult to explain this feeling.....i think sum people mite call it love. so...once i can figure out how to get pics on here...i will.

::Boys/Girls::
eye color? brown...but it dnt matter
height? a lil taller than me
weight? i used to like the chubbyish ones...but my skinny 1 will b just as cute
curly hair or straight hair? dnt matter but straight is hot
style? w/e floats their boat
first thing you notice? eyes....sense of humor
ever kiss a girl? yurp
ever kiss a boy? renactin it in my head.....aww....it was cute
ever cheat on someone? nope
ever been cheated on? nope
where was your last date? if the dance counts...then that
are you taken? YES!!
if so, by who? david sansone III.....damn i love sayin his name!!
if not, who do you like?
who likes you?
ever been rejected? yup
ever been asked out? sad enough....no...well....sort of...but the dude was 25...so he dont count....
ever reject someone? i dnt think so.....
are you in love? im too young for that.....but i love sum1
do you want someone you cant have? sadly....yes
have you ever? did u read the last question??
how far 'into the ball feild' have you been? almost hit 1st.....i kno...pathetic
What makes your knees weak? lots of things....david for 1....
Who takes your breath away? david and angela.....n sum of my friends when they actually say sumtin advicely
add tongue to a kiss or no tongue to a kiss? id like him to slip me sum tounge....but SHH!! i never said that!!
Where do you want your girl's/boy's hands to be while your kissing? around my waist or on my back
Where do you put your hands while you kiss? behind head/neck
love or lust? a lil bit o both
have you had your heart ripped out? not from love...but yes....n my friends sewed it bak into place
have you shattered someone else's heart? i hope not
would you kiss your bf/gf infront of all your friends? YES!! (hey...i did it to him in front of his last nite!!)
would you tell her/him you love her/him even if all your friends could hear you? of course
friends first? yea
innocent & cute or slutty & hot? cute and innocent
skinny or chubby? like i said....i prefer them w/ a lil chubbiness but ill stick w/ my skinny boy
one night stand or comitment? commitment...HA...look at this....im answering love questions!
hurt or be hurt? be hurt
kinky? not too kinky
would you hold hands with your partner? again....lookin back on last night......
braces or no braces? idc

::Misc::
How was your first kiss? w/ tounge...waiting....w/o....w/ a dude.....it was...breathtakin
Do you like to kiss? yep
Do you prefer kissing or hugging? both
Do you prefer hugging or cuddling? cuddling
Do you slowdance? thinks back on last nite.....*sigh*
Who was your first kiss, and i mean REAL kiss? im waitin....but i have who it will b in mind
Who was the last person to kiss your lips? david
last person to kiss your cheak? emm....angela i think....yea....i said bye to her last last nite...so yea....it was angela
Where were you? angelas back porch thingy.....he was sayin good nite to me...
Do you have a secret get away? yes
Do you like being kissed on the neck? yea
Do you have a phobia? many
What was your first screen name? redderheader
Ever cheat on a test? yah
What is something your proud of? (this is mushy).....havin a bf
What about something you regret? not findin him early in da year
Ever been on a plain? yeah
A helocopter? no
What was the last thing you dressed up as for halloween? physco clown....i mean...missy...jkjk
What was the last thing you ate and drank? candy necklace n mountain dew
Who was the last person you said i love you to? anais
did you mean it? YES!
Who was the last person to let you down? i aint sayin
Who was the last person to make you smile? anais
How'd they do it? she commented on a comment from me
do you like the carnival? who doesnt?
who do you talk to on the phone most? i dnt like the fone n when i talk...its my mum
who do you talk to on the internet most? angela
whats the most relxaing thing ever? bein held while slow dancin....omg...all ur troubles die
do you like suprises? usually
whats your dream job? doctor/mom.....teacher/mom.....mom
whats your dream family? a happy one
whats your dream future? happiness n a family
whats your cell phone ring? hello moto
classic or alternative rock? either or
when was the last time you cried? last nite when it was ALL over...after angelas
what was your longest relationship? the past day....ya.....n its STILL goin....wow
you smoke? nope
drink? nope
do drugs? nope
ever been arested? nope....the SWAT team....lol (inside loke...its ok if u dnt get it...u r not retarded)
whats the best make out song? this kiss
if you had a theme song what would it be? untitled by simple plan or scars by papa roach
whats your favorite pair of undies? my superman ones
ever watch and enjoy porn? eh....
what kind was it? good
summer or winter? summer....its my b-day
cheeseburger or hamburger? hot dog
whats the most romantic date you could possably think of? w/ the guy/girl you love
ever walk in on your parents? nope :)
ever walk in on anyone? nope :)
ever been out of state or county? yea
who was the last person you gushed to? i dnt remember....my guess is angela or anais
would you eat sushi? no
prefer tic tacs or altoids? well....tic tacs...i eat the entire box @ once
someone ever write you a love letter? not that i am aware of
you ever write one? yup...n it got intercepted (thank GOD!! i could b coupled w/ daniel lynn now!!)

just another poem i wrote: "it is right around the bend" graduation is right around the bend but our friendships will not end we have seen the good and the bad the happy and the sad no fears for HS, we have to stay tough no matter how crowded or rough when one of us is down, we help them rise we have met new girls and guys no matter if we are here or there we will always be together everywhere!

I dont choose my life...i just play the cards i'm delt

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 04:48:57 GMT

WOW....that is pretty much all i can say. the dance was SOOO much fun!! if anybody has good pics of all me friends....could u make a copy (especially if u have ones of me n david). so...as most of u probably kno....it IS official...me and david are a couple....HA I ACTUALLY KNEW SUMTHIN FIRST!! i danced w/ him all night and i'm glad i did. i kinda enjoyed the attention when evry1 would be like "aww....thats soo cute".

angelas prty was....fun. we played a few selective games and we jumped on da trampoline. i got an insight on sum of my friends n that is always kewl. i love all of u guys n u better kno it!! howeva, it REALLY pissed me off how evry1 was tryin to pull david over to me n tellin him that i wanted to make-out....so wat if i did....they dnt need to b tellin HIM that!! GOSH! but, i had fun anyways. me n anais held the longest hug n that was kewl. me and david kissed each-other good-bye and a few times @ the dance....no biggy...but it WAS my 1st dude kiss.....tht actually meany anything. so yea...im tired and cranky and i need sleep!!

suprisingly, i didnt cry 1....i almost cried durin "graduation" but i put my head into david and i didnt feel like cryin again. so..yea....ill cry a lot in da next few weeks!!

ok...gnite!
xoxo
~me

p.s: i love david!

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 20:50:37 GMT

The formal is tonight n i cannot wait. it is gunne b sooo much fun. i got my nails done this afternoon, the lady ripped me off by $10!! ARG! but she also ripped off:tina, tanya, aileen, cassandra, n val...so....it wasnt just me. then i got my hair done and HOLY CRAP!! this lady did an EXCELLENT EXCELLENT job!! like totally awesome. i am about to brush my teeth, put on my make-up and dress and finally....my shoes. i also have to get a bag together for angelas....im not sure if im gunna get wet b/c of my hair...but ill decide that later!! well....cu guys @ 6:30-7:00!!
~retarded lil ol me

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 23:42:11 GMT

day was fun......s.s test was easy....math test is nervewreckin.....ill probably get like a 70 or sumtin like that....but w/e.....

skewl until 10:45.....math final in there
mum picks me up n i am goin to da nail place by CVS...or da one by YOGI'S..i dunno names....but w/e....which eva1 is cheaper w/ tips....
go bak to HS..wait around there til 2:45.....then getting my hair donw @ Elyzes(its a salon)
cum home.....get dressed...pack bag 4 after prty....
drop shiz off @ angelas....then muchos pictures b4 dance....UGH!
dance w/ david (YAY!)
prty til midnight or wheneva its ova....
sleep....or not....depends on wat happens 2morrow nite.....

i cnt wait til 2morrow!!! YAY!! da girls r gunna look MARVELOUS N B-E-A-UTIFUL n da dudes will look HANDSOME AS HELL!!!